"Part of me wonders if this part of my life is real, as it seems too good to be true compared to the rest."
It’s real, and it’s not even close to all you deserve from life. All the joy, love, laughter, friendship, peace, excitement, and adventure life can possibly throw at you is what you deserve. You deserve going to bed every night content with all aspects of your life, at peace with the world around you. You deserve the stars singing. You are worth all of this.
More, real is what you make it. If it’s a dream after all, let it be a dream. Dreams change us, and we remember them in the hollows of our bones. If it is a dream, embrace it. If it is real, embrace it. It fills you either way, and you are buoyant.
It takes courage to embrace it. Take it from this girl, always waiting for the iron, the other shoe, the last nail. It takes courage to remember that life is mutable, that everything is forgettable, that no one ever stays, and to hold the experience close to your chest and breath it in anyway. Courage to be willing is what allows us these dreams. Buy the ticket, take the ride.
It’s selfish, it’s so very selfish, but it can be so much more incredible when you’re sharing that seat with someone. I’ll take that ride.