Nijntje

Which is to say, purpaidh zaychek in de ruimte

There were fistfuls of hair ‘round the foot of my chair
And echoes of screams before me
But breathing out I swear you were real

But I can hear them plunderin’ the streets at night
You never shoulda told them what you had inside
And I don’t want my children in an endless race
And I don’t wanna wait to see what else they take
(So far I’m in love with you, I’m)

rosiepiesc4 said: 22 29 68

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?

Yes and no.  I do really like it as a sweet little thing, but not as a replacement for other additional manners of kisses.  It’s cute, but make out with me too.

29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?

Target Halloween clearance.  It’s one of those “costume shirts” that got Raphael’s chest.  TMNT.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

AHHHH yes.  As I’ve lost a chunk of weight, my clothes don’t fit like they’re supposed to.  It’s happened several times in the last year… just POOF NO PANTS.  Embarrassing.

The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy.

(Source: discolor3d, via satanicdokidoki)

ugly:

on this weeks forecast, there is 0% chance of getting laid

(via satanicdokidoki)

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it?
2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time?
4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
7. What exactly are you wearing right now?
8. How often do you listen to music?
9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?
10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015?
11. Are you a social or an antisocial person?
12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’?
13. What about ‘R’?
14. Can you drive a stick shift?
15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?
16. Are you going out of town soon?
17. When was the last time you cried?
18. Have you ever told someone you loved them?
19. If you could change your eye color, would you?
20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for?
21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having.
22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
23. Are you dating the last person you talked to?
24. What are you sitting on right now?
25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?
26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?
28. Do you get a lot of colds?
29. Where is the shirt you are wearing from?
30. Does anyone hate you?
31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?
32. Do you like watching scary movies?
33. Do you want your tongue pierced?
34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
35. Did you have a dream last night?
36. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
38. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
40. Did you have a good day yesterday?
41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship?
42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?
43. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
44. What’s the best part about school?
45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook?
46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school?
47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head?
48. Were you single over the last summer?
49. Is your life anything like it was two years ago?
50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?
51. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
52. Are you nice to everyone?
53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
54. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
55. Are you good at hiding your feelings?
56. Do you think you like someone?
57. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’?
58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?
59. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry?
60. Do you hate anyone?
61. How’s your heart?
62. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
63. Have you ever cried over a guy?
64. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
65. Are your toenails painted pink?
66. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
67. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct?
68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
69. Who was the last person you were on the phone with?
70. How do you look right now?
71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?
72. Can you commit to one person?
73. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
74. Have you ever felt replaced?
75. Did you wake up cranky?
76. Are you a jealous person?
77. Are relationships ever worth it?
78. Anyone you’re giving up on?
79. Currently wanting to see anyone?
80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?
81. Last person you cried in front of?
82. Is there someone you will never forget?
83. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you?
84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?
85. Are you over your past?
86. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex?
87. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?
88. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
89. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in?
90. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?
93. Have you ever kissed a Matthew?
94. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going?
95. Were you happy with the person you liked in March?
96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?
97. Who do you have texts from?
98. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
99. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
100. Who’s in your profile picture with you?
101. Ever kissed under fireworks?
102. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?

The thing with LJ recently has me thinking about naming, the power of identification and how it is both simple and terribly difficult.  

It is a theme we see over and over again in the stories.  If you name the demon, the fairy, the strange supernatural being, you have some modicum of control over it.  In the younger, or simpler stories, naming is enough.  The thing disappears in a puff of rage, leaving behind the trauma and mess and memory, but leaving surely.  Once into the somewhat more complex stories, naming is merely a first step.  It is identification, the power of knowing what it is you’re fighting.  The first words for the correct google search, the correct chapter in the musty book, getting in contact with the right person.  Naming can is part of drawing a demon out of its realm, trapping the critter in yours where its powers are weakened, your resources improved.  Naming gives you a chance.  Naming is a source of hope.

What are our demons?  Our fears, our worst ills, the things we do to ourselves to destroy ourselves.   Not naming them, not acknowledging them except in the quiet, lonely spaces in the middle of the night is where they keep drawing power.  Those things, so long as they are not admitted to, destroy ourselves and our friends, burn our bridges.  (Aside – we refer to it as burning bridges because those are connections between islands of people.  Burning connections is easier than building them.)  So long as we don’t bring them into the place where we all speak, the spaces where we are stronger, we have no chance to defeat them.

This is why we speak up.  This is why I say my wonderful and my terrible loudly.  This is why I am not quiet about the social ills I can identify.

Knowing my demons gives me power.  To apologize.  To rebuild.

I wish this friend could see this.  I hurt for the hurt they are feeling in their own mind, and the wreckage they and their demons have left behind them.

0753: Do you see the sky? It's magnificent. This coast is an amazing, gorgeous place to live.
0914: What do you wanna do for your birthday? My Fridays are quickly getting booked... currently only two more available through October.
1014: I have presents for you eeeeeeeee
1109: I just read the lyrics to [redacted] OMG you have to use this in something romantical for S. It is waaaay to cute. If you haven't already. Oh man, do the thing!!!
1234: Yesterday, I sent T the "I'm mad at you" letter. It came out much more ranty than I really expected, but I wasn't able to pack the energy to fix that. I began very done with the whole thing. Bleh. Warned R & C about it also, there were many sighs. I hope it works out well but I really don't know if she's gonna flip her shit or what. Poor communication kills me, but I was just so mad. Four moldy cups! Four! AHHHHH. I dunno why I let it get to me. None of it is a big deal, not a bit of it.
1338: I am waaay in over my head in figuring out scheduling with anything. Like, every day feels booked, and I just want to hang out with you sometimes and pet your head and do terrible things.
1341: This is why I don't actually send these texts. And god, I have an envy thing now too.
1352: The county mutltiapp form is called the SAWS1. I find this entertaining.
1646: Everything is 11th hour miracles in this line of work. So be it.
bdsmgeek:

ddlgdoodles:

Wax play is wonderful! It gives the opportunity to turn your sub or bottom into your personal canvas and form them into a work of art. Through out the span of a few posts, I will be giving you the lowdown on wax play and hopefully others will chime in with their personal experience and advice.
Your tools of choice:
There are several types of candles out there, but the safest to start off with is paraffin. According to a post by Norische on The Iron Gate, here are the other candle types and their melting points:
Paraffin 120 – 145 degrees
Low temp wax 120 – 125 degrees
Standard jar candles 125 – 135 degrees
Standard pillar candles 135 – 140 degrees
Bee’s wax candles 140 – 155 degrees
Oil based candles 165 – 190 degrees
Gel jar candles 165 – 180 degrees
As mentioned above, paraffin’s melting point is at a safe range for beginners to start off with. Keep in mind that you’ll want to start off with a colorless wax just so you and your sub or bottom knows what it feels like. I’ll discuss this more in the next post in the series.
Colored waxes can increase the temperature of the wax slightly, especially if the wax is colored with paint and not dye. If you’d like to add some color and stay on the safe side, I’ve read that melting crayons with plain wax will do the job just fine and you can achieve this by using a crockpot.
Stay away from:
Scented candles - Save your expensive Yankee Candles to put around your room to enjoy in other ways.
Gel candles
Metallic colored candles
Wicks that are not string (cotton is normally used, I believe)
Anything made from animal fat
Painted candles
If you’re ever unsure of a candle’s make up, play it safe and don’t use it. You’re better off spending some money on candles that will make your experience pleasurable and not downright painful. There are plenty of adult sites (Edensfantasy, LoveHoney, etc.) that sells candles for sensation play and wax play, just be sure to read reviews before you purchase.
Sources used:
Kinkopedia
BDSMwaxplay by TenderDom
Candlelight Moments: Basics of Wax Play
Hot Wax

Awesome graphic, welcome back
ddlgdoodles
!

bdsmgeek:

ddlgdoodles:

Wax play is wonderful! It gives the opportunity to turn your sub or bottom into your personal canvas and form them into a work of art. Through out the span of a few posts, I will be giving you the lowdown on wax play and hopefully others will chime in with their personal experience and advice.

Your tools of choice:

There are several types of candles out there, but the safest to start off with is paraffin. According to a post by Norische on The Iron Gate, here are the other candle types and their melting points:

  • Paraffin 120 – 145 degrees
  • Low temp wax 120 – 125 degrees
  • Standard jar candles 125 – 135 degrees
  • Standard pillar candles 135 – 140 degrees
  • Bee’s wax candles 140 – 155 degrees
  • Oil based candles 165 – 190 degrees
  • Gel jar candles 165 – 180 degrees

As mentioned above, paraffin’s melting point is at a safe range for beginners to start off with. Keep in mind that you’ll want to start off with a colorless wax just so you and your sub or bottom knows what it feels like. I’ll discuss this more in the next post in the series.

Colored waxes can increase the temperature of the wax slightly, especially if the wax is colored with paint and not dye. If you’d like to add some color and stay on the safe side, I’ve read that melting crayons with plain wax will do the job just fine and you can achieve this by using a crockpot.

Stay away from:

  • Scented candles - Save your expensive Yankee Candles to put around your room to enjoy in other ways.
  • Gel candles
  • Metallic colored candles
  • Wicks that are not string (cotton is normally used, I believe)
  • Anything made from animal fat
  • Painted candles

If you’re ever unsure of a candle’s make up, play it safe and don’t use it. You’re better off spending some money on candles that will make your experience pleasurable and not downright painful. There are plenty of adult sites (Edensfantasy, LoveHoney, etc.) that sells candles for sensation play and wax play, just be sure to read reviews before you purchase.

Sources used:

Kinkopedia

BDSMwaxplay by TenderDom

Candlelight Moments: Basics of Wax Play

Hot Wax

Awesome graphic, welcome back
ddlgdoodles
!
me seeing a video game: ok but can I play as a girl?
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Daily dose of love quotes here

iglovequotes:

Daily dose of love quotes here

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Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

Depeche Mode “Enjoy the Silence”